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"I've spent the last week rushing to finish everything I'm currently reading so I could start and give my full attention to Pete Greig's latest book The Vision & The Vow." writes Carla Trundle (left). "I've been antipating reading this for probably about a year and getting hold of a copy has coincided with growing hunger for something more... |
I've been disappointed in myself, in my respect for God, in my love for Jesus, in my understanding of the Bible, in the compromises I make. 2004 was a year of seeking God in a dry place. I made steps forward, my Father was gracious but the further I walked with him the more I hungered. I wanted to be sure that when I will hear "Well done my good and faithful servant". I want to learn to love truly, serve in reality; not just talk a good game.
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I bit back all the 'correct' answers and realised that I was asking myself similar questions... Am I really living for God? |
Last night, before attending my cell group, I was talking to a friend. What she was expressing was quite similar and as we were talking I bit back all the 'correct' answers and realised that I was asking myself similar questions... Am I really living for God? Do I know what it means to be in love with |
Jesus, to have a real relationship with him? I'm coming back to the root, to the source, putting aside the trappings and refocusing on the one who motivates.
I practically dove into bed after cell to start the book and as I read I was really challenged. A couple of chapters into the second part of the book (The Vow) Pete takes you through a meditation on Jesus and how much you love him... I was floored. I read with tears damping my pillow and felt something in me start to come alive with honesty. At about 1.30am I got out of bed and knelt on the floor to talk to Jesus. In weakness I want to learn, to be shaped, to be changed, to move forward, to fall in love...
This morning I opened Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest and the title for today was Intimacy with Jesus...
"Have I been so long a time with you, and yet hast thou not known me?" John 14:9"
